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Never there When I need it the Most.

Sunday, June 5, 2011 @ 6/05/2011 11:25:00 PM

Ever since I started studying away from home, I felt like I'm the odd one out in the family. When I go home, I don't even get my room back. Whatever changed in the house was never told to me. All I could see and notice was the happy smiles and joyous moments my family captured on facebook, without me there. For that, I guess it was just part and parcel of living away from home. But to think that my phone calls were deterred/ignored/put off by excuses and my problems were left for me to sob over/settle on my own/redirected to another person, I just don't feel it anymore.

You do financially support me and nurture me through my childhood and adolescence. However, I don't feel appreciated. No matter how much I strive and struggle to show you and try to make you proud, you just don't seem to give a damn on the spot but I always see you shining of you smile in glory when the praises come in. If I fall, no one catches; if I rise, it's supposed to be like that. WTF, I'm not born to please everyone k? I have feelings and limitations too. I'm not everything, I'm just.. me.

Remember the last time I was stuck in the airport? Did you remember what you say or even what you did? Remember that time when I told you the accommodation office won't let me live in the hostel if I don't pay extra? Remember the time I told you I needed someone to talk to? Remember all tha things you did not say/tell/do to make me feel safe and secure? I'm the girl who grew up with you, you should at least know I'm THAT fragile. But thanks to all this, I realized I could still manage it all on my own. I'm still strong enough to hold on even if it isn't really okay out here.

Thanks for not really being there for me, I grew harder, better, faster, stronger!

Posted by lifen♔ at 6/05/2011 11:25:00 PM
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